My only complaint about another year passing is that it’s another 365 days worth of memories that I have to try and commit to memory. Sometimes I lie in bed at night reliving moments of my life, desperately trying to visualise all the small details so as never to forget them and it’s definitely gotten worse since having kids! I worry that all the amazing things that have happened in my life so far will get overshadowed by all the wonderful things to come and I can’t stand the thought of waking up one day and forgetting the minute details of my husbands proposal, or the day my parents took me out for my very first Martini when I graduated high school (I was 18), or what was happening the day my kids were born. Even small things like spending countless hours walking to and from the video store with my brother every school holidays, or how Hazelle used to clench her tiny fists so tightly that when I finally uncurled her fingers she would have collected little bits of dust and fluff in her palms.
However as I look at the girl in the pictures above, I am reminded to live in the moment. The years are going to keep on rolling by, the milestones and experiences are going to keep increasing and yes, some memories will get fuzzy while others will fade. But that’s the wonderful thing about family and friends, everyone remembers different things and reminiscing with loved ones is a beautiful thing. So this year, instead of worrying about forgetting moments, I am going to let things comes as they will, soak up every day with my ever changing babies and wonderful husband and look forward to reminiscing about this beautiful life with others in years to come. Happy Birthday to me 😊.